Happiness is in the eye of the beerholder - erhh... beholder.

***Presently, instead of telling you all that I saw a woman taking a squat on the beach yesterday while I was out running (and she wasn't a rough bogan, she was a lovely middle aged lady - which made me feel much better about my beach toilet antics) I feel like I should be sharing with you what is going on in my head... and in my heart.  It just seems like the right time.  You've probably noticed the blog had taken a bit of a 'self help' spin... something is urging me to be open and honest and blog about shit that really matters - to me. 
So... here is another 'wise old Karls' post.***

A theme, or question, keeps popping into my mind lately... 

If you aren't happy with where you are, will you ever be happy where you end up?

(Can also be translated as 'if you aren't happy with what you have got, will you ever be happy with what you get?')

Chances are you probably know someone, or perhaps you are that someone, who is always wanting more.  Never happy with what they/you have.  I know a few people like this.  Hell, I think at times I've even joined their ranks.  No matter what comes their way, they seem to have zero gratitude and immediately want something more.  Perhaps it's not the right colour, it wasn't delivered right, it's too big, too small... you get the idea.  They just seem to be very hard to satisfy.

Now, is that because they set their standards high and expect the best because they believe they deserve it?  

Or... is it because they don't feel 'good enough' themselves?  They don't live up to their own/others expectations of them... and therefore, since they can't satisfy themselves, they can't find satisfaction in the things around them?  You know... the world is your mirror and shit like that. 

Up until this point in time, I've spent a good portion of my life 'chasing the rainbow'.  Problem is... once you get to the end of the rainbow, there is no pot of gold.  In fact, you actually can't ever get to the end of rainbow - the bloody thing keeps moving! 

What if you didn't need to chase happiness around? 
What if instead you found that pot of gold... and discovered that all along it was inside of yourself? 
You are the gold.

That is where I am at right now.  I am the gold! 

Everything I ever wanted, I allow myself to have - from me.  I provide it.
 In turn, I love myself enough to allow it from others.  I allow the good shit to come my way.
Self sabotage is a bitch I'm all too familiar with - and she can go fuck herself.

I am soooo grateful.  Now, I truly appreciate all the good things in my life... right here, right now. 

If you think about all the good things in your life (and no matter who you are, or where you are in your life, there are plenty to be found) how can you possibly be unhappy with what you have?

Honestly... how nice would it feel to have all that you want, or need?

You know what?

You already do.