Yo bitches! As you know, I've been a little higgedy piggedy lately. You may remember I started seeing a psychologist for some issues and I really feel like I am making some progress of late.
I think a bit of my anxiety and depression has been caused by my isolation and I figured it was time to take charge and do something about it. Joining the local Wildlife Rescue organisation was the first step and it's working out great. I've been on the phones a few times now and I must say the first time was really fucking nerve wrecking. I'm not sure what I was afraid of... it was that intense anxious feeling you get when you're about to embark on a new job venture - when you're not really confident in your ability and feel like you're completely out of your depth.
Of course, I wasn't... after the first 24 hour shift, I realised that it's not at all as scary as I'd originally built it up to be. There's nothing like throwing yourself in the deep end!
So, one the wing of one success... I decided once again to bite the bullet and chuck myself outside of my comfort zone. I booked into one of the local business women networking groups and tomorrow, a little too early for my liking, I'm heading to my first 'meet and greet'.
Once again, the nerves are high... but to hell with it! I'm giving it a crack! If all goes well, I'm considering trying to start something a little more locally.
I'm going to leave you with a bunch of words that once passed the lips of one Nelson Mandela (originally written by Marianne Williamson)
it is our light not our darkness that most frightens us
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
I feel I must mention I'm am by no means a religious person (spiritual, yes... religious, no). It actually feels a little strange to have the word God on my blog, considering I'm not a believer. This verse, however, works for me.
Wish me luck! I'm going out and grabbing life by the balls.