A stark reminder...

Life sure is fleeting... There is no better reminder than a super talented young dude, with his entire fabulous life ahead of him... gone... suddenly!

An old employee of mine, Jonno, was one of those special people who were following their personal legend.  He was living life without limits... so much so it was contagious.  Travelling the world, indulging in his outstanding talents, absolutely loving life and living it to within it's last breath.  

 Unfortunately, for this world, he took his last breath today.

A very stark reminder that we are here for an indiscriminate amount of time... any breath could very well be our last. 

I'm so glad to have shared the same path as he - albeit briefly.  He was someone you aspire to be like... 

I wish I'd taken the opportunity to tell him how inspirational he truly was.  

But... life is fleeting.

I won't make the same mistake again.

Rest In Peace - Jonno Howell.  

Loved your work... quite literally!

Childhood dreams

Another coinkydink that has come to my awareness over this past week or so...

Everything I come across  - books, websites, film, TV, people I'm running into - are all indicating that as a child we know what we are here for.  

I've always believed this... My folks were really good at encouraging us to be what we wanted to be.  That if we wanted something badly enough, and were willing to take risks and work hard to get it, it could - without a shadow of a doubt - be ours.

My brothers are both exactly where they are meant to be.  They are following their childhood dreams.  My youngest bro was always obsessed with reptiles... My folks encouraged his interest and, as a result, we had a number of lizards living with us.  The other bro was handed a gift... He is an AMAZING artist and he has always feed his gift.  This month he is on the front cover of the Art Guide, has a show coming up in Melbourne and is self publishing a book.  Inspirational!  Both of them!  

Me?  Well, I can't really remember what I was going to be.  So, I spoke to my folks about it.  They, like me, remember that I wanted to be lots of things.  I wanted to be a famous dancer, have a dance school, be a famous singer.  I wanted to change the world - I'd stand in the front yard, lay my toys out on a table and sell them to raise money for the Children's Hospital... or pick Nanna's lemons and sell them door to door.  I wanted to be a children's author.  I wanted to be a star on Young Talent Time.  I wanted to be a teacher.  I wanted to be a photographer.  I wanted to work on radio.  I wanted to make music.  

I guess, I wanted to entertain.  I'd always said that my bro, D, was the intellect... G was the artist... and I?  Well, I was the communicator.  

I know, in some boxes in the garage, I have a bunch of old journals from my childhood.  So, I'm going to go through have a read and get back in touch with my inner child. 

But that will have to wait until I transform myself back into a child - I'm getting a fringe cut!  After much debate, and many years, I finally decided to bite the bullet - for fucks sake, girl, it's just hair!
No doubt I'll look much like my 5 year old self!

I know!  I know!  I haven't aged a day... (bwahahaha)

Even back then I was a creative little spark.

Will let you know what reveals itself!

P.S... If you are here... head on over here (Karlosophies facebook page).

Personal Legend

I'm still buzzing with anticipation... lots of idea's are running through my brain.  I know, with a sense of internal certainly, that big things are on the horizon.  There is change in camp Karls and it's just around the corner.

I'm a big believer in coincidence - or synchronicity - although life has been so crazy the past couple of years I've not really been looking, or listening for these clues.  

Recently, something shifted and I'm back in the game.  The astrologist, the psychic, the chance meeting of someone who steered me in the direction of Kate Forster (the author of the fabulous Spiritual Business), the same Kate Forster coming to speak at Coffs BWN, picking up a couple of books that 'spoke' to me and all of them centring around intuition, coincidence and destiny, being told by numerous sources that 'if you head in the direction of your destiny, the whole universe conspires to give you a leg up'... All clues that I'm heading in the right direction - although still not quite sure of the destination.  Only time will tell.  If it's in my destiny, I'm now in the right place to find it.

Ye ol' blog has been a little neglected of late... and for a number of reasons - I've lacked the inspiration to put words to screen... I've not really felt I've had anything 'blogworthy' happen and even if I have, I've lacked the motivation to sit here and share... Perhaps I've even thought life has become a little boring and mundane (certainly not anything anyone would be interested in reading - I mean, seriously, who wants to read about Saturday nights in and reading in bed at 8.30pm).  

What I have realised this morning, is that I'm not here to blog for anyone else's sake... I'm not here to blog for comments, or followers (a word I'm not a big fan of, I must say).  I'm here to be me... and to share my experience in the hope that part of it might speak to someone on the same path as I.

So, this blog is undergoing a costume change.  I've decided it's going to be a journal of travels, incidents and coincidences throughout the pursuit of my personal legend....  

and you'll be the first to know when I work out exactly what that is!

Stay tuned enlightened souls!

The stars align...

Do you ever have that sense of an impending... something? 

A slight anxiousness, nervousness, sense of anticipation... like something big is lying just around the corner?

Well, welcome to my world!

I've felt this kind of unexplainable pull over the past few months... like a building, bubbling excitement just beneath the surface.  You know that feeling you get when you are organising a big holiday, a move or a new job?  Kind of like that... without any of those things on my agenda. 

It's just a gravitational pull... towards, well, I don't really know!

I guess that's why I went to see the psychic... and this morning I went to see my astrologist.

The frustrating thing is that they both tell me there is some really good stuff about to happen... especially creatively (which is where I'm feeling this pull) but can't give me anymore details than that.  They've even narrowed down the date to where I will be struck down by this inspiration - the 24th April.  Other than that, I'm on my own... damn it!

Patience is a virtue... unfortunately not a virtue I possess much in the way of!

Change is in the air... and it's so thick I can physically feel it. I'm currently in the 10th house of anticipation... with nervous excitement in the North node and a little frustration passing through Myanus.

Just got to keep reminding myself... It's in the stars! 

 No one can get in the way of your destiny... except, of course, yourself.

Date with a pyschic

Right now... in this very moment... I'm content.  I feel together emotionally, spiritually and phsyically. The dark days are over and just a memory.  Today I feel that my journey over the past year has made me stronger - strange concept that vulnerabilty should lead to strength (but it inevitably does).

I've got a lot of good shit coming to me at the moment - perhaps because I'm back to believing I'm worthy of it.  In a week I'll be sunning myself in Thailand with Micko, my little bro and his wonderful wife.  Before which, I'll be at the wedding of one of my favourite peeps... spending time with my best friend in the world (who is roughly 6 months pregnant), her little sis with her brand new little bubba Jack and some other equally rad people that you always (even in the depths of depression when you are convinced no-one could even contemplate liking you) feel comfortable with ('home' friends).

I've been treating myself with massages and facials, had a bowen session and I spent a delicious 3 hours in a day spa - complete with full body exfolliate and mud scrub with one of my newest (and very rad) girlfriends.  Heaven! 

Another treat was Friday's trip to see a pyschic... A strange experience...  Which I will quickly share with you.

As I approached the door, I could see someone sitting with their back to me on a recliner, then a voice spoke out...

"Karly, welcome... Come in."

Bit bizarre... like something out of a movie really.  What was to follow was very strange - and a little bit funny. 

She was a little disorganised, looked not at all what I thought she'd look like, spoke of herself quite a bit, answered her mobile and chatted halfway through the reading... but she had lots of good things to say - so I wasn't about to say 'hey lady, you're on the clock'.

Apparently, I will live on the coast around here... on a big beautiful property.  An older style house, which we will build a new extention on the back of (oblong in shape).  It will have a waterhole or running water on it and the house will feature stained glass windows.  We will settle there.

There is a change in the air, work wise (which I have also been told by my astrologist and another psychic - supposed to happen around April)... I will take 2 trips to the States - the first time I won't find who I am looking for, the second will be a much more successful trip and business will start booming.  I'm also going to be big in London.  This will all start happening in the next 3-6 month and will continue for the next 3 years.

I'll have a boy... very artistic. Followed within 2 years by a girl - straight laced, good swimmer and will meet and marry someone from money.   No real hurry on the kids front - I won't go through menopause until I'm around 57.   Haha!

We will make friends with people who work hard for a couple of months, then take off on holidays together - as a business expense.  I'll also do lots of travel back and forth for work.

Basically... I'm going to have a very blessed life, be happy in my marriage, in my work (which she said I will work very, very hard at) and in general.  Sounds good right?

I know, listening to what a psychic said is almost as interesting as hearing about how someones dream panned out last night.  That is, until the things they've said start coming true - then you're like;

'Damn girl, give me her number!'

But, will it come true? That is the million dollar question. It would be nice...
I will say that she was spot on about some other things that have happened - she described this fuckwit (along with his bitch of a sidekick) down to a tee.  So, it's certainly not out of the question.

One last note;

All you clairvoyants, psychics and mediums out there...

Take the plunge and join the 21st century. 

Cassette is no longer King!

Purge to splurge

I believe the world is your mirror... and if that is truly the case, your home is a manifestation of where you are at.  If there is chaos in the home, that chaos reflects in everything you do - your mind, your work, your relationships.

I've been messy (and down right dirty) in my past... and it was totally a reflection of my head space.  The worst periods have been when I've had little respect for myself, let alone my surroundings.  The other side of the coin is having your place like a display home (that says something entirely different about you - the need for perfection can be almost as destructive).  Like everything in life, it's all about balance.

These days, I'm clean, a little messy at times... but I think I'm getting the balance almost right. 

So, where was I going with all this?  Oh yeah... that's right, my wardrobe and drawers.

Sometimes a purge is totally necessary.  I've always been a bit of a hoarder... not like 'Hi, I'm Karly and I'm a hoarder', but I do find it hard to let things go. 

I have clothes that I was wearing in 1996 because they have memories attached, or I remember feeling great in them.  I have letters from girlfriends from Year 7, tickets from concerts, old costume jewellery my Aunty gave me, dolls with one eye and missing hands...

I guess without really realising it, I've been a bit of a hoarder emotionally too.  While I've forgiven, I seem to have hung onto their beliefs. I'm only just figuring out which serve me... and which certainly do not.

So, I'm going to hang onto that doll (called Matthew - yes, it's a girl) because it was a big part of my childhood, the letters will also stay... and the clothes?  Well, that's how I've spent my morning. 

It's time to let go of the past and move on (metaphorically and physically).  I've kept a few pieces - like the Mooks top which was my first present ever from Micko and the pants I wore on our first ever date.  The rest is off to goodwill - or in the garbage (where it definitely belongs - like those period undies I've had for 10 years, or the bra with the broken strap).

It's amazing how good you feel after a big purge... it's like a weight of the shoulders (or your wardrobe hanger).  Things feel more organised, less cluttered.  Bedroom, mind and soul.

I'm making room in my closet, and my life, for bigger and better things.  And they are coming... because, finally, I am ready!

Karls and the giant basilstalk...

One of my rad friends, Graphical, had a slight obsession with a basil plant I kept while living in Vic.  Every time she'd come round she'd point out how fabulous, healthy and huge it was.  We'd done nothing special with it - in fact, the dirt we planted it in was mostly ash from out fireplace.  I was supposed to pass it on to her when I moved... oops my bad - I think we just chucked it in the garden to die.

Anyways... we use herbs (especially basil) quite a bit and have a little balcony planting space - where we've attempted to grow regular basil, thai basil, coriander, mint, lemongrass and oregano.  Nothing was really happening - a little disappointing considering my previous 'basil success'.

Then, Micko (who recently started a new job working in hardware) came home with some sample packs of this fertiliser. 

I mixed up a batch and poured it over the basil... 

Two days passed, we headed off to Sydney for the night...

and from virtually empty stalks....

Magic happened!

Now, I was pretty blown away by this - to show the size, I've used a large can of Aeroguard.

A few weeks later, and this is the progress (I've not used the fertiliser since)...

Same Aeroguard can!  And... I've pulled almost every leaf off twice - made a batch of pesto and some other heavy on the basil dishes.

It's just incredible!

Perhaps I missed my calling as a bit of a green thumb.

Schmoking...

I'm not a resolutions type of person... if I want to change something badly enough, I do it - regardless of the date.  Often I'll procrastinate... until I'm at the point of no return.  Then, I'll make the change.

I decided to quit smoking.   For a few years, I was a pack a day kind of girl.  After I got married, I went to see a hypnotist and although it was still super dooper hard, I stopped smoking.  And it worked well for a year or so - until I moved back to Vic and had no pot to smoke (oh I didn't mention I'd traded one 'smoke' for another - it was only when I was drinking).  We (Micko and I - we do all of these thing together) started to sneak a couple in when drinking... slowly it crept into our week (one after work)... then into a few every night. 

I didn't want to turn into a full time smoker again... I didn't want to be sitting in a movie theatre wishing the movie would end so I could nick out and light up.... I didn't want to be desperately sucking down 4 or 5 durries before checking in at the airport, looking at my watch to count down how long till my next 'fix', running out the doors and lighting up before collecting my baggage.  I also didn't want to be buying 3 packs of cigarettes before a big night - had to have a safety deck after my safety deck (if I'd run out and not be able to scab some, I'd go to bed immediately).  I didn't want to be that sad, addicted freak anymore.

So, I smoked my last cigarette on New Years morning (just a coincidence) - like around 2am.  I wasn't going to put undue pressure on myself... I was just not going to smoke anymore (but if I did, I was going to accept it and start again fresh the next day). 

First week was fine... second and third day were particularly tough but I managed to get through them.  The challenge would be when I picked up a drink!  And it was challenging... I tried to keep myself busyand was a bitch to Micko... but, I got through the night... clean.

The rest of the week was a breeze and the word 'cigarette' hardly popped into my mind at all.... until Friday.  Certainly not as hard as the previous week but I did notice I was a little 'shirty'.  Especially when woken up at 3am by Katy Perry and Micko singing Firework at ridiculously high volume (Micko was a mutant - he'd have to have been to be singing Katy Perry - certainly not one of his favourites!)

Saturday was the real challenge... a night out - with.... chain smokers!  ARGH!  Once again, a battle of will, of which I came out victorious!  I surprised myself and it was much easier than I thought... I was tempted a few times, but thought about how gross it really is - and how my head and chest will feel in the morning.

So, it would seem that I am now officially a non-smoker.  I've come up against my biggest hurdle and I've cleared it with ease.  I've finally joined that group of people that I've admired and envied soooo much over the years!  And I'm smoked (ooops Freudian slip) - ahhh, I mean stoked! 

Ss-Ss-Studio

I'm getting my blogging freak back on... And I have a few stories to tell you - life hasn't been standing still while I've been awol. 

The last 6 weeks have been quite a whirlwind... a trip to Melbs, a girls weekend on the Goldie, Sydney for Muse (which in itself deserves an entry - hell, I think there is one if my drafts folder somewhere), some partaying and of course the craziness that is Christmas/New Year/Summer.  I'll save those for another day....

You might remember, some time ago, I blogged about the shithole that was my working studio.  Drab, depressing and damp - not at all condusive to creativity. 

Well, that's all changed. 
Still a few things to do - like hang my paintings and put up some shelving, but it's certainly a billion times better than 6 months ago!  If you need to see the shithole to believe the shithole, click here now.

And now I unveil the new and improved workspace...

The recording booth that Micko worked tirelessly on... A dream to record in! Loving the chalkboard lightbulb - a perfect match for my logo.  Soundproofing plasterboard (dry wall), filled with soundproofing insulation, another layer of plasterboard and some acoustic foam.  The window is 2 planes of double glazed glass. And it features a solid decorative door to boot (heavy mofo - and a total prick to hang).

Perfection!

Inside the money maker... gets a little hot and sticky in there, otherwise it's a total gem!

New studio monitors - still need to get the right lead so they'll work - slacker!

The back wall is teal... I can't show you that side just yet - that's where all the crap is neatly stored awaiting shelving and storage... hey, I'm not perfect, but I'm halfway there!

Speaking of a beautiful, functioning workspace... I really should get in there and start working!

aveagoodweekend!

Rain, rain, go away...

Floods... suck major arse!

I should know... I've lived in Northern NSW for about 6 years now and I've spent my fair share of time a prisoner in my own home while the roads around me close, one by one, until there's nothing left to do besides pull a six pack out of the fridge and a deck of cards from the junk draw and play some snap.

We are coming up to our 2 year anniversary of moving to Nambucca and last year alone, I saw the river flood around 4-5 times. It's a bizarre thing to watch... Water, water every where... Trees flying past being thrown around like a leaf, dead livestock washing up on the beach, the sea turns a lovely shade of brown and there is caramel coloured foam as far as the eye can see. High tide hits and town becomes an inland lake. Then as quickly as it comes, it recedes. Leaving behind a damp, wet, muddy path of destruction.

This time round, it's not my little town of around 10,000 batting down the hatches... it's the third largest city in Australia. Not just a few hundred people in the low lying area's of the Nambucca Valley - but thousands upon thousands upon thousands of people, displaced for what could be months and months and months. Devastating is an understatement!

I've been blown away by just how thoughtful and caring people can be... The amount of texts, phone calls and emails I've received, asking if I'm okay, has been overwhelming! This morning I got an email from a complete stranger who'd just stumbled across my blog and was concerned for my safety. And just now, another from the lovely 'Seattle Heather'. Sweethearts!

I've had many a drunken conversation about the humanity of people... that the world is a good place, full of essentially good people (some of which do bad things from time to time) and on many occassions I've been told I'm niave to think that. But I'll stick to my theory... my world is a good place - overflowing with great people... and in hard times, these great people do extraordinary things.

Humanity always surprises me... unfortunately, so does Mother Nature.

My thoughts are with everyone affected - including my family, friends and work collegues.

As someone wise once said... but for the life of me I can't recall who...  Woah - you know what?  I think it was Bill Rancic (please don't tell anyone I watch Guillana and Bill!)

Everything will be alright in the end... and if it's not alright, it's not the end.